Unfaithful.

Dreams, everybody has dreams.
Don't you, have a dream of your own.?
What are dreams.?
Dreams is a succession of images, thoughts, sounds, or even emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
But for now, i'm talking about the first one - A dream is a succesion of images, thoughts and sounds.
I have many dreams, aplenty in fact.
Probably too many to name.
But i'm sure, you know that, Cole Sprouse is my dream.
He's my idol, favourite actor, etc.
I've even called/named him my dear hubby.
I'm obsessed over him, but i never thought that i was crazy.
Or even, losing my mind.
For some of you, maybe a handful out there, for whom don't idolise anyone.
You don't understand how it feels, to have an idol.
I can understand.
But i do not believe that there is any out there in this world.
I am sure everyone idolise something, in different areas. Some what, somehow.
But sometimes, dreams do go to the extend of something that can never be accomplished.
Most people go all out, to accomplish their dreams.
Like many, i'm probably one of them.
Girls, like me, have teenage hearthrobs they idolise and look up to.
For me, Cole Sprouse is my idol. (Everyone knows this, i think.)
Going to Los Angeles again,
this time to Woodlands Hills, California to meet Cole Sprouse.
Is a major dream. It's a challenge
And it's hard to accomplish i must admit.
But i'll do so one day.
Before you say that i'm crazy/ insane/ weird or whatever shit you wanna shoot on me.,
THINK AGAIN.
Is accomplishing a simple task - making my dreams come true to life something crazy.?
Something insane.? Moreover, something weird.?
I don't think so. It's just something so simple.! And to you, it's crazy/ insane and weird.
But heck, i know it sounds oh.so.bizarre, but is it impossible to accomplish.?
I don't think so.
How would you feel if you happily told someone about "your oh.so.bizarre" dream, and the person shows you that diao look.?
If you don't know what look ima talking about, it's this.. -.-
(I know i always show that face also, but k whatever.)
After which, i asked if you think i was crazy. (Cos you seemed so bored in that conversation.) You replied., "A LITTLE BIT, HAA!"
My self esteem dropped to the floor, like almost instantly.
Does dreaming of a bizarre thing means you're crazy.? No. It's not.
If this is the case, Woodbridge Hospital won't have enough accomodation for everyone.
For a moment or so, i agreed with you.
I felt like an idiot, so very stupid to pursue such a dream.
I thought telling you this, i would get encouragements.
But no, i didn't get any encouragements.
Instead, you laughed the matter off.
Is it really that hilarious, or did you laugh for the sake of laughing.?
Answer me.
I thought you were encouraging, thus, i wanted to tell you this, hoping to get some encouragements.
But unfortunately, i thought too high of you.
After leaving a girl's school, heart2heart sessions obviously lessened.
All my luvlies, are in St. Theresa's.
Transferring school, great idea.
Indeed it is, but how much hassle am i going to go through.?
All i wanted, was a listening ear. It's dead simple.
I lent many, my listening ear.
But no one lent me theirs.
I felt like a loser.
Where can i get encouragements from nao.?
I really don't know. ):
P.S:/ Am i being a little over sensitive? Or is am i just moody? I don't know. I really don't know. I seem to mind what other think of me, big time. But all that don't seem to matter anymore.

Where is the old, you. You've changed so much. What is wrong.? Can't you be more encouraging? It's my dream. Oh well, not forcing you to give me encouragements. But supporting me w. encouraging words is better than laughing it off. I learnt so much today, you aren't a really good listener, are you.? You wouldn't even lend me a listening ear. Before i could complete what i want to say, you laughed it off. How am i going to bring myself to tell you more, if you're going to laugh everything off?
Well, obviously i can't. I won't let you crush my dreams anymore. This is final, the very last time, i am going to let you do that to me.


"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe."

To everybody.: I do not need your negative comments. Thankyou. :D